Before the creature accomplished to hit you with its head, you dodged it by throwing yourself to the side. Your weapon was thrown out of your hands a few feet away from you. The rush of adrenaline helped you to quickly recover from the impact, and you picked up your SMG from the ground before you ran as fast as possible to the fence, going through a hole that the creature had just made. You noticed how fast it was approaching you again, so you stormed off and attempted to fire at it through the gate as you ran. But because you were running, your aiming was inaccurate and the bullets that reached the creature did not seem to do any damage at all; the creature appeared to absorb it all quite well. At least the bullets bought you a little more time to escape as you headed to the frontside of the building.
The sight of dead bodies made you cringe as you almost stumbled on them while you ran. At the gate, you saw Sebastian holding a huge assault rifle in his hands, aiming at a hunter that had just killed a man. He increased the accuracy by squatting down on the ground and shooting directly into the eyes of the creature, his hand staying unbelievably stable while he did this, thanks to his mechanical augmented arms. You couldn’t look at him for long, because soon you noticed that an Overwatch soldier was approaching him from behind the house, raising his weapon. Even if other Resistance members noticed the soldier, they couldn’t get their bullets to penetrate their armor.
That’s why you decided to stop him before he’d start shooting at Sebastian and catch him off-guard. You started to run again towards the soldier, rising your weapon to aim. Your finger pulled the trigger, and luckily, your bullet hit the side of their right rib. That alone didn’t stop them from running, but as you approached them, you accomplished to shoot at them with an enhanced rate of success. Because you were so focused on saving your beloved partner, you couldn’t notice the hunter that had attacked you earlier, who was now ready to use its flechettes on you in order to hurt you. Sebastian heard the grunting noises that the soldier emitted after he had finished off the hunter that fell into the ground. He stood up after he put his rifle onto his back, into the holster, and grabbed his bonesaw from his utility belt.
As he turned around, he saw a wounded Overwatch soldier running towards him with a shotgun. Sebastian was able to react quickly and dodge the bullets with success, even if one penetrated his left upper leg as he moved out of the way. The man decided to attack the intruder from the left side, digging his large-toothed saw into their neck at an 45-degree angle. Even if the soldier had good neck protection, it wasn’t able to save them from a mad doctor with a bonesaw in his hands. This immediately resulted in an enormous loss of blood, and the soldier fell into the ground soon after. Sebastian let the soldier ease themselves onto the ground before he took a look at you, seeing a hunter charging right behind you.
“There’s a hunter behind you!” he informed you just before the hunter shot its flechettes in the direction of you. You were lucky enough to react to Sebastian’s warning quick enough, and got out of the way, throwing yourself to the side, just like you did before. Since you were out of ammo, you reloaded your gun as fast as you were able to do, and began to shoot at the creature, emptying a whole magazine into it. Sebastian joined you as he grabbed his .357 from the holster, aiming directly into the hunter’s head while he walked slowly towards it. Together, you two accomplished to kill it in under ten seconds.
For a little while, it was peaceful. Sebastian signaled you to follow him as he ran to help an injured resistance member who was leaning against the gate on the other side. He had multiple bullet wounds on his legs and upper body. He kneeled down in front of the man, and took off his glove. He checked the man’s pulse with his fingers, hoping that he’d catch something. “Ach, Liebling, could you try it out for me? I’m not sure if I’m able to feel the pulse correctly with my receptors.” Sebastian asked you and gave you some space. You nodded at him and kneeled down next to him, taking off your glove. Your hand worked its way to the man’s neck, pressing fingers against the vein. Unfortunately, you felt nothing. “He’s gone..”
After your sentence reached Sebastian’s ears, his facial expression darkened. “Das kann nicht sein..” he muttered in his native language and stood up, looking around him. Everything he could see were dead bodies and blood. Not a sign of life. “He was alive just a few moments ago. Liebling.. I’ve destroyed so much, but healed no one.” he came into a realization, wiping his cheek with his left hand, holding his revolved with the right. You stood up and laid a hand on his shoulder, pressing your head against his upper back, attempting to comfort him from behind. “It’s okay. You can’t always save everyone. It was rough and fast-paced, even I had to run for my life without stopping. There was no time for healing.”
He stood still for a short while until he turned to face you, wrapping his hands around you gently. “Hase.. I wish I was as positive as you are, but we lost so many.” the German whispered and sighted, pressing his forehead against yours. Even if he was so close to you, you managed to look at him into his blue eyes, which were now full of regret. “Hopefully we’ll find Dell and some others inside. But this doesn’t end here. Now that they’re aware of this hideout, we are no longer safe. They could bomb this location at any moment.” he spoke softly to you, your hands being positioned onto his arms. “At least you kept me alive. Remember that.” you reminded him. This made him smile widely, in a sad way. “That’s because you’re my number one priority.”
The hideout was dead-silent as you walked down the stairs. However, when you were close enough, you were able to hear the silent hurring of a computer fan. The sight was relieving; Dell was there along with two other people, as well as Jenner, all totally silent and speechless until they saw you two. Dell stood up and walked immediately up to you. “How many dead? Please don’t tell me ya two are the sole survivors.” he begged in a desperate tone of voice. Sebastian wasn’t able to look him in the eye. “Dell, I’m sorry.” he managed to get out of his mouth, the case quite hard for him to talk about. The Texan’s hopeful facial expression fell as he realized what you meant. “Can’t be. That ain’t true.” he convinced himself, sitting back onto his computer chair.
You decided to join the conversation. “Dell.. The enemy was so tough. We had three hunters there and a handful of Overwatch soldiers swarming around. We tried our best, but it wasn’t enough to save everybody. I’m so sorry.” you explained him as well as you could, but Dell didn’t feel any better by this explanation. He covered his face with hands and sighted deeply. “I believe ya.” he whispered, “I truly appreciate your effort. But there’s more coming, since they have discovered our hideout now.” You turned to look at Sebastian, who was staring at the monitors thoughtfully. “Maybe they’re following us. It’s been only two days since we escaped City 17.” the German speculated. Dell lowered his hands that were on his face, taking a long look at the man in front of him. “No, that’s not it. There’s been a major uprising in the city. That’s why they’re patrolling around, in case they’ll be able to find members of the Resistance.”
Sebastian couldn’t believe his eyes. An uprising attempt, again? That was unbelievable. It had been only less than a month since the previous one. This caused him to feel some hope deep inside him. “Really? I had no idea..” he said, totally astonished. “I’m not playin’ games with you. It’s all real. That’s why you two should get out of here and deliver supplies to White Forest.” Dell answered, “If this is going to be successful, a lot of citizens will be needing shelter and food. This hideout is a lost case, and will probably get destroyed within a few days.” You thought about it. Were Dell and the two others going to stay there until they’d die? “But.. How about you guys?” you asked him. “We’ve gotta keep this place up and running until the very end. But if the uprising turns out to be successful, we’ll come to White Forest.”
When the Sun was setting in the horizon, you wandered outside again. Sebastian had been gone for a few hours, and you had imagined that you’d find him outside, since you searched every corner of the base and couldn’t find him anywhere down there. The air had gotten noticeably colder when you stepped out the door, but you didn’t mind it at all, even if you were wearing only a gray comfy pullover over a tee, blue jeans, and your standard shoes. You walked to the gate and opened it silently just to prevent making your presence known.
You didn’t have to search for him any further as you noticed the German’s familiar figure on a long wooden box next to the gate. He was, surprisingly, out of his armor, wearing the outfit that he was wearing in the morning. The sunset illuminated him in the colors of orange and pink, which created shadows on his body, especially on his face. He was looking straight into the sky above and had a picture in his hands. The expression on his face was slightly melancholic. Maybe there was a hint of tears in his eyes, but you weren’t able to see that far in detail. Slowly, you began to approach him, hoping that he wanted some company.
He didn’t notice you at all until you sat next to him on the box. Sebastian rose his brows and turned to look at you, his expression quite blank at that moment. After his brain processed your identity, a wide smile appeared on his face. “Ah, (Y/N).. You found me.” he said in a silent tone of voice. “What are you doing here all alone, Sebastian? I couldn’t find you anywhere.” you asked him. “I’ve been here for a while now. I guess I needed some time off, just to think about things.” the German answered you before he slipped the photograph into his pocket, apparently focusing solely on you now. “What kind of things?” you answered curiously, noticing that he hid the photograph which was in his hands. Sebastian turned his head to look into the sky, the rays of sunset blinding him for a second. “About my life, to be exact. And the course of it.”, he mumbled the sentence out of his mouth, swallowing. “I also thought what could’ve happened if the incident at Black Mesa never occurred in the first place.”
You kept your eyes on Sebastian, listening to him with care. “It’s very hard for me to think of the possible outcome, since I’ve been born into this world. What did you do before this started, exactly?” you asked him in a curious tone. A faint smile appeared on his face again as he heard your question, as if he waited for you to ask it. “I had just graduated from medical school and worked as a doctor in Stuttgart. I was still young, in my twenties, and very ambitious. I happened to meet a foreign woman, who later became my fiancée. We were together for years, but you already know what happened to her, so.. The story didn’t end well. Not for my parents, either. People who couldn’t meet the standards of the Combine were executed.” he sighted after he finished the sentence, “They killed millions. Only the so-called ‘normal’ ones were accepted, because they were easy to maintain and control, the Combine thought. They killed disabled people, children, and people who were too old at that time.”
Your expression darkened as Sebastian continued to explain the thing. “That’s why I’m going to put an end to this. I’ve witnessed so much during these past twenty years, and I’ve been one of them. I won’t stop until this all comes to an end and the Earth will finally be free from this slavery.” he said with pure dedication and confidence in his voice. Then, he turned to face you. “And if this all goes right, we will finally be free.” The thought of freedom felt like a dream. You found his dedication quite far-fetched, since the victory appeared to be impossible to achieve under these consequences. But he kept believing. He believed that you’d make it through, even if the world had already fallen apart before your eyes. Since the day you were born.
“Sebastian.. I seriously hope that we’ll take our planet back. Humanity has so much potential. It doesn’t have to end like this.” you agreed and felt yourself becoming a bit emotional from this serious conversation you two were having at the moment. Sebastian noticed this and rose his right hand onto your shoulder, stroking your collarbone with a thumb. “It won’t, Liebling. Even if they had to rip my humanity out of me, I’ll never stop fighting for this cause.” he assured you, “Maybe one day, you will see what the world was like before the invasion took place. Even I have hard time memorizing it all, since it’s been so long. A lot of things have happened, but perhaps I’m still the same man I was. Ambitious. A bit crazy, even.”
You smiled a bit and put your hand onto his arm, caressing it gently. “Whatever you were back then, I like the way you are currently. And I’m not just saying that. I really mean it.” you began to speak again, “You’ve been so good to me all this time. Sometimes I find myself wondering what did I exactly do to deserve all this. Not to mention that you took me out of City 17 and gave me freedom. A few days ago it was just a distant dream of mine.” Sebastian was astonished by your sudden compliments, and he wasn’t able to answer you for a while. “Liebling, I do all this because I..” his sentence was cut short as he hesitated to say the rest, his jaw only making slight movements. He swallowed and opened his mouth again to talk.
“From the moment when I saw you, I knew that you were special. Citizens never save officers, but you saved me, even if I was dressed like one of your enemies. Caring is something that had apparently became very rare nowadays, but you have it deep inside you. It’s nothing fake or pretentious, you truly have it.” Sebastian told you, with a slight blush on his cheeks. You thought he was just returning the compliment, but it appeared that he was actually very serious about it, judging by his behavior. “That’s why I think I’ve subconsciously developed a strong bond with you. And that’s not all, because.. I feel a thing that I thought I’d never be able to feel again in my life. But I was wrong about that, Hase. So wrong.” he took a long, loving glance into your eyes, “I think I’ve fallen for you.”
Was he joking around with you just to see your reaction? Definitely not, because Sebastian would never play you. It took you a long while until you realized what he truly wanted to tell you, and it hit you hard when you finally got it. Sebastian was telling you that he loved and adored you, and he thought that you were like no other; someone that stood out the crowd. Your cheeks were burning after you processed all this new information, and this didn’t pass unnoticed by the German, his expression showing his worry. “Uh, Liebling? You seem to be.. Frozen.” he muttered and rose his brows while he looked at you, attempting to tell if you were alright or just overly surprised by his confession.
Before he was able to say another thing, you slid yourself right next to Sebastian and wrapped your arms around his neck with care, pulling him closer to you. For a while, he was clueless what was about to happen, and he assumed that you were going to embrace him. His assumptions were destroyed when you closed your eyes and pressed your lips against his, tilting your head to make the kiss more comfortable. This was the only way you knew how to kiss another human being, so you dealt with the slight clumsiness of it. Because your eyes were closed, you couldn’t see how Sebastian reacted to the kiss. But soon enough, you felt his strong steel arms around your body, and he pulled you onto his lap with ease. The man tilted his head to the opposite direction and returned the kiss passionately, apparently with a lot of skill.
You couldn’t think about anything anymore, solely focusing on kissing the man you secretly admired so much. He was your first, and it felt so right to be kissed by him, at last. This was way better than you had imagined the sensation to be, and you loved every second of it. Sebastian murmured something in his native language during the kiss, constantly moving his hands on your lower back with slow movements. You forgot your own clumsiness since Sebastian knew exactly what he was doing as he kissed you, letting himself lose control of his feelings entirely.
A few minutes passed until you two broke the kiss just to take a long look into each other’s eyes, both of you entirely flushed and astonished by the thing you two just did together. It was hard to believe that it really happened, at least for you. “Liebling, I think..” the German began to speak with a thicker accent than his usual, attempting to push some words out of his mouth in English, “I think you’re feeling it at least as much as I do.” This made you nod in approval, planting a short, effortless kiss on his lips before you answered him. “You got that right. I think I made it a bit too obvious, didn’t I?” you asked him and smiled, still holding your arms loosely around his neck. The man nodded and smirked at you before he leaned his forehead against yours.
You could’ve spent the rest of your life on his lap, but unfortunately, as the darkness came, you two had to go back inside since the air was getting way too cold. Sebastian and you were now lying on his bed, both wearing your own choice of sleepwear. He had his arm behind you back, and your head was positioned on his clothless chest, your left hand over his gut, caressing the man’s wound. You were just fine lying like this in total silence, especially when you had no energy left to speak with him due to your sleepiness. You weren’t exactly sure if Sebastian was tired or not, but you could nearly sense that his eyes were closed at that moment. The sound of his breathing was relaxed and regular, which gave you the impression of him being already asleep.
Because the lamp was still switched on, you had to rise your body slightly in order to reach your left hand to turn it off. Apparently, Sebastian wasn’t asleep since he noticed your struggle. “Ach, Schatz. Let me do it.” he said with a tired smile on his face as he rose his right hand, turning the light off with ease. “Thanks. I thought you were already sleeping, but it seems like you weren’t.” you confessed as you returned to your previous position. He laid his right hand onto your left hand that was on his stomach, holding it gently. The coldness of his prosthetic arm made you shake a bit, but you soon got used to the sensation. “Instead of sleeping, I want to spend as much time with you as possible, Hase.” the German mumbled and kissed your cheek before he tilted his head back against the pillow, “We’ll never know how much time we have left. That’s why I try to enjoy every single moment with you.”
This made you smile. You played with his metallic fingers and observed them; the way they bent and how their joints worked in a natural way. “Don’t think about it, Sebastian. Just try to make yourself believe that we’ve got plenty of time. No need to conserve it too much.” you encouraged him and closed your eyes again, “And with these enhancements of yours, you’ll be immortal.” Sebastian chuckled and shook his head slightly. “Schatz, I wish I could believe you. But everything breaks at some point, eventually my body will, too. It will take a long time until that happens, though. Perhaps I will reach singularity before that.” he answered you and yawned silently before he adjusted himself on the bed. “Well, you’re true about that. Let’s hope that day won’t come too soon. Besides, I like your enhancements. I guess it makes you unique.”
“Nein, wirklich nicht. Many units have these nowadays, especially the elite soldiers. Well, they’ve been enhanced beyond their humanity. They no longer know what is right or wrong; the meaning of their life is to take orders from Dr. Breen and the Overwatch dispatch.” Sebastian explained, “I’ve been working with many, and believe or not, sometimes it feels like they have an artificial intelligence instead of a human mind inside their heads. That is what extreme brainwashing does to you.” You listened to him with pure interest, but at the same time felt quite haunted after hearing some new information. “So if we never escaped, you’d become..” your sentence was cut short as he began to speak. “Du hast Recht. I knew it from the second I saw Dr. Breen’s expression. Even if it was going to be minor, I wouldn’t have been the same after it. The Combine requires total focus and no distraction from their commanders.”
You swallowed a bit when you began to imagine how everything could’ve ended if he never had the courage to abandon the Combine. “You should be proud of yourself for being so brave. If I was in your position, I’m not exactly sure if I’d ever be able to do anything like you did.” He rose his right hand from yours and positioned it on your shoulder. “Believe me, when you’re facing a certain challenge, you do what you must. I didn’t rethink the escape even once. It just felt like the right thing to do. All I thought about was the freedom of me and you, and the importance of our fight to put an end to this invasion.”
Soon after you made your decision, you began to feel the man behind you move, like he was waking up. He mumbled something in his native language and took a deep breath before he placed his cold palm on your lower arm. Was he actually doing that on purpose? You had no idea about it, but he was invading your personal space way too much by that moment. Slowly, you rose yourself up to a sitting position and attempted to slide down to the edge of the bed which was located near the man’s toes. You succeeded, and when you finally stood up, you took a short look at the German who was still sleeping on your bed, apparently not being aware of the fact that his ‘plushie’ was gone.
Sebastian’s right arm was placed under his pillow and his legs were spread over the bed comfortably. He had buried the half of his face into the pillow, eyelids closed lightly. Damn, he actually had a very nice shape for a man of his age, you thought. His back was well-formed and the prosthetics that were attached into him looked very good. You weren’t able to turn your head away for a long time, until you noticed that he was about to wake up from his sleep. A silent grunt escaped from his mouth and he opened his eyes slowly. You grabbed your jacket from the chair and started to put it on yourself, pretending that you weren’t eyeing him just a few moments ago.
The man had no memory of why he was sleeping on the wrong bed, but he certainly noticed that you weren’t there anymore. All that excess warmth had gone away, which was the exact reason why he woke up in the first place. He turned himself to lay on his back, and immediately saw you as you were buttoning your jacket. “Guten Morgen, Hase.” he said in his native language, calling you with your pet name that he had given to you. You immediately turned to face him again, his blue orbs staring right at you. He looked rather ravishing when he had his hair slightly messy, and besides, he was not wearing anything on his upper body. You gave him a faint smile as you felt your cheeks heat up again. “Good morning. How did you sleep?” you asked him as he snuggled the back of his head tighter into the pillow.
“Better than ever. However, I hardly think that I’ll able to move for the next five minutes. Gah, it must be so late already.” You checked the time from the clock that was located on the table nearby. “No, not really. It’s only seven in the morning. No need to rush anywhere.” Sebastian looked satisfied all the sudden as he heard your answer, and smiled even wider. “Wunderbar.” he whispered and closed his eyes, “Did I.. bother you last night in any possible way? Zum Beispiel, I might’ve stolen your pillow.” the German asked in curiosity and positioned his hands on his gut. While he had his eyes shut, you had the chance to take a longer look at his body again. “I can’t really say anything about the case because I didn’t wake up even once when you slept next to me.” you answered him, “It was nice, though. It’s something I’ve never experienced.”
The man opened his eyes when he heard your opinion about the thing. “Wirklich? Hmm, I must agree that it was quite wonderful. Looks like I’ve found the cure for my sleeping problem.” he confessed, “I’m really looking forward for the next time.” You felt how your heart began to beat faster after you heard the German’s opinion. Sebastian knew how to make you completely flushed within seconds. As unfortunate as it was, soon you heard someone knock the door that was located right behind you. Immediately, you turned to face the door in intention to open it. Sebastian got himself into a sitting position, from which he soon stood up. You pulled the door knob.
“Hey, would ya two like to have some breakfast? It’s usually at this time, I forgot to tell ya that yesterday.” the kind man with a Southern accent was behind the door when you opened it. Dell had his signature smile on his face, which was a nice thing to see in the morning. “Oh, good morning Dell! We were just preparing ourselves. We’ll come up in just five minutes.” you told him and gave him a smile. “Alright. The breakie will be waitin’ for ya two. Take your time.” the man said before he left. You closed the door and turned to see Sebastian, who was apparently dressing up. He wasn’t picking up the parts of his armor, and it was actually something different.
Sebastian was dressed up in a white slim-fit dress shirt that was tucked into his uniform pants, a black leather belt, and his black combat boots. He was just about to tie his red tie when you finished scanning him. He wore all that under his uniform? Maybe. You had no idea. Beside all that, he looked good, somewhat quite formal but the outfit looked just right on him. The clothes were unbelievably clean. Maybe he decided that he didn’t need to wear his armor all the time; after all, he was indoors. The man noticed that you were seemingly admiring his choice of clothes, so he smiled at you widely in a happy way. “You like what you see?”
You melted. He was so irresistible, and you weren’t able to handle it. “Oh.. Yeah. You look very.. Good.” you stuttered nervously and moved your bangs away from your eyes, “I mean, that outfit honestly suits you very well. You look more fit for your real profession now.” The German’s smile turned into his smug and evil smirk soon after he heard this while he finished tying his tie meanwhile. “Dankeschön, Hase. I assume that you’re right about the ‘dressing for the job’ part. The APC we used as our escape vehicle happened to have some clothing in it that was intended for Civil Protection officers; I couldn’t resist. That armor makes me feel like I’m on a constant mission.” the man confessed and walked to the door, right next to you.
He looked even better up-close, you had to admit to yourself. “I totally get that. You look much more approachable, too. I think your armor created some strong feelings yesterday among the rebels.” you smirked. Sebastian laughed briefly to your comment and opened the door. “Indeed. Maybe it’s better this way, isn’t it? These people probably have something for you, too. Getting out of that citizen gear might make you feel even more free, ja?” he said as he walked through the door, you coming right after him. “Yeah, that would be nice. We can go see if they have something which is my size. But first, breakfast. My stomach is making noises at me.”
When you two had finished breakfast, Sebastian got you some resistance gear with the help of Dell. Basically, you got your own kevlar vest armor that was actually recycled from a killed Combine officer, a utility belt, a pair of gloves, and a backpack. You went to your room to make sure the size was right, and everything fit perfectly on you. When you walked out the room, Sebastian was already in his armor, waiting for you. He looked positively surprised. “Hase, you look threatening. Ich mag es.” he commented and smiled widely at you. You chuckled a little bit and looked at yourself. “I take that as a compliment.” you answered him. The man looked thoughtful. “Schatz, I was thinking..” he began to speak, “How about if I teach you how to shoot? It’s about time you learn that valuable skill.” You honestly liked the idea, because it was very important to know how to handle a weapon. “Yes, definitely. That’d be great. I heard the weather is beautiful outside, and a bit warmer. So why not? Besides, I should find a reason to wear this armor.”
You headed outside while Sebastian was getting some empty cans and weapons for your little lesson. When you opened the door, you could feel the fresh air get into your lungs. It really wasn’t as cold as yesterday, and the Sun was shining. You closed the door behind you and stepped further to the porch. Maybe it was just an illusion, but you felt more free than ever. The autumn wind blew through your hair gently as you walked to the gate to wait for your friend to come. Without you hearing it, Sebastian walked opened the door with his equipment and came up to you. “Everything’s ready. Let’s get outside the gate.” the German told you, your body shaking slightly. “Oh, I didn’t hear you come. Yeah, let’s.”
After Sebastian had arranged a few cans on the hood of a rusty old tractor, he came back and stood in front of you. “We’re going to start with the basics of handling a weapon.” he said and took a pistol from his left holster, handing it to you. You took it into your hands and rose your eyes to look at him. Apparently, he took another identical pistol from his right holster. Next he showed and explained how you were able to take the safe off on the weapon, being a little too specific about it. You nodded numerous times during his speech. Then, he showed how to reload the gun, you repeating after him. He ended up looking quite satisfied with your learning, his smile widening rapidly.
“Sehr gut, Hase. And now, the best part.” Sebastian said before he put his pistol back into his right holster, signaling you to turn to face the old tractor which had the cans on it. After this, he positioned himself behind you. “Take aim.” he commanded, and you rose your hands to aim towards the cans. Suddenly, he put his hands on yours, fixing the position of your aiming. He was right behind you, and you could feel his breath against your right ear. This made you a little bit unfocused, but very relaxed. “Your arms should be as straight as possible when you aim. To hit the target with high accuracy, your eyes should be at the same level with the gun. Also, aim with your dominant eye and close the other” he spoke to you, his accent thickening.
Damn, he was so close to you that you had difficulties following his orders correctly. “Alright.” you mumbled and did what he just told you to do. Your aim was nearly perfect, thanks to Sebastian. “You can now pull the trigger, if you’re ready for it.” the German told you as he let go of your hands and took a step back, moving to your side. You put your finger on the trigger and pulled it, attempting to hit the can. Fortunately, you succeeded. “You’re brilliant, Liebling! Now, try to shoot the other can.” Sebastian praised you. You turned your face momentarily to look at him, smiling. “Thanks, Seb.” you thanked him before you moved your upper body a little bit to aim at the remaining lonely can on the tractor.
You tried to understand what he wrote, but you really didn’t have much idea about it; just a few words here and there, but nothing else. “I’ve always thought that German sounds harsh, but it actually looks quite beautiful.” you confessed and smiled even wider. “Many foreigners think that it sounds hard. Maybe it’s the media that has influenced them. Well, be glad you haven’t heard me scream in my mother tongue. It’s the definition of ‘harsh’.” he chuckled and smirked at you, his hands fingering the fabric of his pants. “Hm. I find that hard to believe. I think it’s harsh in any language, really. And besides, I find it nice when you speak German.” you confessed and looked up at him, pouting slightly without intending it. “Na ja, ich finde es nichts Spezielles. Englisch klappt mir sehr gut, aber ich finde die Wörter ganz schwer zu sagen. Und die Grammatik ist wirklich nicht meine Stärke.” the German said, leaving you unsure what he just said, but it besides that, sounded wonderful to you ears. “You tease. Now I’m stuck, Sebby.”
The man hissed at the nickname that you had given to him. “Stop calling me that or I’ll keep you up all night, Süßling. That’s just awful.” You chuckled before you noticed that the man was leaning a bit closer to you by every second, his left hand slowly approaching your left one. You two looked at each other for quite a while before Sebastian collected all his courage to hold you hand. You felt your cheeks burning when you felt his cold hand on your skin, concealing it. “I wouldn’t mind if you actually did that, though.” your voice came out silent and shaky. The datapad in your hand was soon released out of it, onto the mattress. “Meinst du das wirklich? Ich muss das einmal fragen.” Combining the words that he had told you in the past, you managed to understand the question. “Ja, wirklich.” you answered in your slightly broken pronunciation, which Sebastian thought was adorable. There was a growing smirk on his face, and you felt a bit embarrassed. “Nicht schlecht, (Y/N). Aber du brauchst mehr Praxis.”
Without waiting for another second, the German put his right hand behind your back and pulled you closer in a gentle movement. Before he proceeded any further, he wanted to find out if it was okay to do so. You didn’t resist his move at all even if you were a bit surprised by it, and you leaned closer to the man, your cheek touching his shoulder. This little gesture made Sebastian smile, as you seemingly enjoyed the intimacy between you two. “Tell me if you feel uncomfortable about this.” he whispered and stroked your back in a pair of slow, long movements with his palm. “I’m liking it so far.” you answered and held the man’s hand tighter in yours.
You turned your head a bit to see the man’s face. “I’ll never forget the moment when you let me sleep on your comfy couch in your apartment.” The man chuckled. “I’m glad you appreciate it, even if it was the least I could do. Too bad that couch is not mine anymore.” he agreed. Your sleepiness was, again, taking over your cognitive function. This didn’t pass unnoticed by the man, and he soon gave your body more support by letting you lean against him even more. “Don’t hesitate to fall asleep.” You odded in a slight movement and yawned. “Why aren’t you sleepy? It’s midnight.” you asked the question that had puzzled your mind for quite a while. Sebastian chuckled slightly at your question, sighting. “I’m trying to avoid seeing nightmares. Every time I fall asleep, I wake up a few hours later. It’s a bit problematic.” You opened her eyes and tilted your head to see Sebastian’s face. “So that’s why I’ve never seen you sleep.” you realized, your face saddening within seconds with a mix of worry. The man nodded, his expression turning into a sad smile. “Genau.”
After he confirmed it, you couldn’t help but feel bad for him. You knew that you had to help him somehow. “Let me help you sleep. Please?” Gently, you used your arms to get Sebastian to lay on the bed, which was easy because he didn’t resist the movement at all. He positioned his head on a pillow, attempting to get comfortable. “Liebling, I feel like a baby. This is a ridiculous problem I’m having, and it’s embarrassing to actually reveal it to someone.” You put your finger on his lips, wanting him to stay silent. “It’s not embarrassing. I think the fact that you see nightmares every night is a sign of..” you took a long pause, “.. stress, perhaps. I’ve experienced the exact same thing myself in the past. It’s dreadful.” Sebastian listened to you carefully. “I think someone’s playing doctor, Hase. I’m the doctor here. I should be the one who experiments on people, anyway. I’ve always been the one to do that.” You raised your brows and looked a bit frightened for a moment. “Did I say that out aloud? Oh, well..” You interrupted him. “No, it’s fine. I understand you mad scientist types.” you giggled.
“‘Mad scientist types’.” the German mumbled and closed his eyes at last, “All that healing I did was actually just to satisfy my curiosity. Combine appreciated it. They had no idea about my real intentions.” Meanwhile, you grabbed a pillow from your bed and positioned it behind your back, leaning against it. “Uh-huh. You really like practicing medicine, then?” you asked a question and crossed your arms above your chest. “It’s my life! My mother used to be a nurse. I could read her old medical books all night long when I was a teenager. She was so proud of my career decision, but never wanted me to become the crazy doctor I am.” he smiled in his smug and evil way, opening his eyes enough to see your reaction. You pouted and let out a small sigh, “I think it’s adorable how much you love practicing medicine. I’ve always found surgeries so disturbing and scary. Human body looks terrible on the inside.” The German chuckled and cleared his throat. “Hmm, then you definitely haven’t found the beauty of it yet. How about if you’d assist me during the next possible operation? You would make a brilliant assistant, Liebe.” You nodded nervously. “Well, if you really think so, I guess I should give it a try. But be prepared to see me getting dizzy.”
Their conversation continued for a long while until Sebastian surprisingly fell asleep. You were just about to say something until you noticed the state of the man that was lying next to you. You were still sitting on the side of the bed. “Doctor?” you asked, just in case he was still aware of his surroundings. Apparently not, because you didn’t hear an answer from him. His face looked as relaxed as ever, and his breathing was peaceful as his chest rose and then fell. This made you smile. Because he was unaware of your presence, you leaned over him and gave him a kiss on his forehead. “Sleep well, doc.” After this, you grabbed your pillow from your back, shut off the light, and went to your bed to get some sleep.
In the middle of the night, Sebastian suddenly woke up from his sleep, feeling drops of sweat on his forehead. A bad dream, again. But he remembered nothing about it. The first thing the man noticed was that you were sleeping on your bed, and you were okay. Still, he was disappointed in himself. “Scheiße..” he swore to himself in his native language, managing to get into a sitting position. The German wiped the sweat off his forehead and sighted, his hands running on his face down to his neck. He grabbed his datapad from the side table and checked the time; 2 am. Well, at least he still had plenty of time to fall asleep again before morning, he thought. He decided to get out of his armor to feel more comfortable, so he began to take it off, part by part.
Apparently he was loud enough to wake you up from your light sleep. You opened your eyes slowly, seeing only unclear shadows and hearing noises of undressing. It was Sebastian. “Are you awake?” you asked and tilted your head towards the source of the noise. Sebastian got a bit frightened by the sudden question of you because it was so silent before, but he soon recognized the voice. “Ah, ja. A bad dream again.” he said as he finished undressing himself; he was wearing only a pair of black pants that he used under his armor. They felt much more comfortable than all that heavy gear he had on himself just a few minutes ago. You weren’t able to see him clear enough to acknowledge this fact. “Would it help if you had someone beside you?”
The German was truly surprised by your question, or actually, suggestion. He turned to face your bed to answer you. “Hm. I have never actually tried it, natürlich, because never had the chance.” he answered and took a few steps towards you after grabbing his pillow from the bed, “But I’d be curious to try it out.” Your face was yet again flushed by the thought of the whole thing. You moved yourself to the side, attempting to give him as much space as possible. When he heard your movements, he gently sat on the edge of the bed, lowering himself into a sleeping position soon after. The bed was a little too small for two people to sleep comfortably, but it was fine. You could feel Sebastian’s cold, metallic shoulder touching yours, rubbing it gently without intention while he was searching for a comfortable position. You could smell him clearly now; it was a mix of expensive cologne and gunpowder, just like you had imagined.
“Danke for letting me.. sleep with you.” the man tried to make the sentence sound appropriate for the situation, even if it had other meanings behind it. You turned your body towards the wall and were now lying on your side. “Yeah, no problem. Hopefully it’ll do the trick.” you mumbled, your face only inches away from the wall. You felt him turn to face you, his breathing gently hitting your hair and neck. Oh God, he’s so close, you thought to yourself. Now even you were getting a bit sweaty, even if the room was quite chilly. “Are you comfortable?” the man whispered in a thick accent, his voice sounding huskier to your ear than ever before. “Yeah..” your voice cracked slightly as you answered him, your cheeks redder than ever, “It’s fine, really.”
The man behind you highly doubted your answer, but he let it pass without questioning you even more. However, he was able to sense your nervousness and sudden shyness in that situation. “Na dann, gute Nacht.” he said to you with a slight smirk on his face, which was not visible to you. “Good night.” you managed to answer and closed your eyes swiftly. The only thing you heard was the German’s breathing and the heart pounding in your chest. It appeared that he actually fell asleep much faster than you did.
Due to their slow style of travel, they reached the Resistance hideout within an hour. It was located deep in a forest, neatly hidden from any possible intruders, especially the Combine. Sebastian drove quite close to the hideout, but he kept the distance long enough just in case. Since the place itself was very silent, it wasn’t sure if the hideout was still active within the Resistance forces. Sebastian stopped the vehicle and put on the handbrake. The expression on his face seemed to have a hint of nervousness. “(Y/N), I need you to stay here. Just in case this area is infested with headcrabs or zombies, or anything. It looks quite silent to me, like there was no one around.” he told the citizen. “Alright, that sounds like a plan. I’ll radio you if I see anything on the monitors.” (Y/N) said with a small smile on her face. The man returned the smile and pulled his weapon from the holster, taking the safety off on it and reloading the weapon. “Wünsch mir Glück!”
As Sebastian got out of the vehicle and closed the door, he began to walk towards the damaged building which was higher on the hill. He kept a strong hold of his weapon, being alert at all time of his surroundings. The birds that were flying by made a noise that startled him enough for him to almost aim at them, but after he realized that the birds were not a real threat, he lowered the gun. Finally, when Sebastian reached the building that was located on the top of the hill, he kneeled down to get through a tiny hole that was on a fence which surrounded the house. The strange thing that he noticed were the gates that were locked. He thought that something must’ve been going on there. The German went to the right, just to investigate what was on that side of the house. There were some rusty steel pipes attached to the brick wall, and behind them was a metallic door that appeared to be recently used. This made him very curious, so he began to approach the door.
All of the sudden, the man felt that somebody was approaching him from the back. He turned around, and without being able to react, he felt a painful kick on his stomach, the feeling making him drop his weapon on the ground. Just seconds after that, he was kicked again, now forcing him to be slammed against the wall that was located behind him, his legs betraying him. When he recovered from his confusion, he saw a woman in front of her in Resistance gear, throwing her SMG to the side. She kneeled down in front of him and tilted her body towards the unit, just enough to reach her left hand to his neck, the fingers surrounding it strongly to choke him. Then, she raised her fist to the air. “What the fuck is a metrocop doing here? I saw it when you parked your vehicle down there and held a gun in your hands. I could hit you until you’d die, but I really want to hear your shitty explanation first.” the woman threatened him, her grip around his neck tightening by second, “Start talking, you fucker!”
Sebastian was so out of his mind, and he couldn’t answer the question for a while. His pupils were enlarged and he looked terrified; it was unusual for him to be in danger, because he was usually the one who pointed at people with his gun. “Bitte.. Hör auf. I’m a rogue unit. I have a citizen with me.” he tried to speak, his voice coming out weak and distressed, “I’m a doctor. We have supplies. Guns, armoring..” his sentence was cut off when he coughed, because he couldn’t get much air into his lungs. The woman couldn’t believe him, but her grip began to soften. Finally, she let go of his neck and let him breath normally. “Man, I wish you’re not playing a game with me now.” she said, her voice still relatively aggressive. Sebastian turned his body to the side, attempting to get some fresh air.
Meanwhile, (Y/N) got enough of sitting in the APC and walked outside up to the hill. Soon she noticed a friendly looking man walking towards her from the top. “Hey. What are ya doin’ here all alone with that Combine vehicle? I saw someone walk outside about five minutes ago, but one of my friends went to took care of it.” the man said in a Southern accent, “Are ya friends with that person?” (Y/N) looked at the man, nodding. “Yes, he actually wanted to see if this hideout was still active. We escaped from City 17 last night. He’s a doctor, also. Um, can you guys take us in?” the citizen asked and felt a bit awkward when she asked such a question. “Yeah, sure! A man like him could help us a lot. Follow me, let’s go see if he’s still up there.”
The citizen followed the rebel up to the building and tried to look around just in case Sebastian was visible somewhere. When they walked close enough, they could hear a woman talking just around a corner. “That must be her. I think she’s talkin’ with your partner.” The man proceeded to walk with a slight smile on his face. Within a few seconds, they saw the woman standing in front of the slightly injured Sebastian, who was still sitting against the wall. “You seriously frightened me with that uniform of yours. I thought that our hideout was under attack! Please call before you come, you dork.” The woman was seemingly giving Sebastian a lecture about his ‘bad manners’. (Y/N) noticed Sebastian’s state and looked worried, but she was relieved to see that he was quite alright.
“Hey, Jenner! Stop givin’ him a lecture and listen up.” the male rebel shouted at the woman before she was able to say another word of insult, “These two people are survivors and they have some souvenirs from the City 17 in their APC.” He still had a slight smile on his face, even if the situation was a bit uncomfortable for them all. “Then why the hell do they have an APC and why is this guy dressed like something we should kill?” the woman insisted and crossed her arms upon her chest, her face in a frown. “Hey, hey, hey. Chill out. They’re probably skilled enough to steal things like those from the Combine, so don’t be delusional. And besides, the guy whose ass you just kicked is a doctor, so be nice or he won’t be treatin’ ya when ya need it the most.”
Sebastian listened to their conversation and put his hands against the wall to stand up from the ground, his expression being quite annoyed. “Eigentlich,” he began to talk, attaching the attention of the three, “I was one of them just 24 hours ago. This is not a camouflage.” Those words silenced the two rebels and made (Y/N) feel nervous. Sebastian totally shouldn’t have said that in this situation! “I knew that from the moment that I saw you. You smelled like blood, like every each of them does.” the woman began to talk again, her hands turning into fists, “Man, you have no idea how much I hate your guts.” Before she was able to do anything to Sebastian, (Y/N) quickly dashed to in the middle of the two. “Please don’t be so harsh on him. He’s an amazing man, and could never put a citizen in danger. Don’t just judge him because he used to serve under the Universal Union. His ideology is not the same as theirs. That’s why he abandoned them.” she talked, attempting to prove a point there. The male rebel behind the woman tried to encourage (Y/N) by nodding as she spoke. However, the expression on the woman’s face didn’t soften a bit. “I think I’m beginning to believe you, but you better watch out if you’re lying.” The male rebel sighted and got enough of the woman’s blaming attitude. “Oh please! You’re always so distrustin’ towards everyone. Just shut up. Shut. Up. Ma’am. Please. And let these people inside.”
The man’s request was effective, because the lady finally let those two inside of the building. They walked numerous stairs down until they reached the actual hideout. It was full of computers and screens, as well as supplies and there were about seven people. Most of them were talking to each other and planning something in front of a map that was attached to the wall. “It’s a bit silent here. Half of our troops were killed during the latest uprising attempt in City 17. But we’re managin’.” the man spoke and turned to see the two, “And anyway, my name is Dell Conagher. I’m in charge of all the practical stuff, such as the computers and other mechanical things. I can also shoot a gun, but I prefer to stay with the machines. I used to live in Texas before this all started, but I guess I’ll never be able to return there.” he introduced himself in a friendly manner, a soft smile on his face. (Y/N) returned the smile and introduced herself to Dell. When it was Sebastian’s turn, he gave the other man a professional handshake. “I’m Sebastian Jäger, and I’m from Germany.” he said shortly. “I heard from (Y/N) earlier that you are a doctor, that right?” The German nodded when he heard Dell’s question. “Yes, indeed. If you need a doctor around here, I’d be more than pleased to take the position of being one.”
After this, Sebastian and a rebel went outside to get the supplies from their vehicle, carrying them down to the hideout. Meanwhile, Dell showed (Y/N) around, introducing her to the people that permanently lived there. She noticed how many of them had escaped from the surrounding cities, just like her. But she also met a few who were born to freedom, which she found unbelievable. They told her that they used to work at the Black Mesa Research Facility, the place where it all began. She didn’t want to blame them, because it was just an accident they could do nothing about. When Dell was done showing her the places, he turned to see (Y/N). “Before I forget, I would like to show you the place where ya guys can sleep and have some privacy.” he told her. At least she got to sleep with a friend and not with someone completely random, which was very important to her.
Later that day when the night finally came, (Y/N) and Sebastian had finally settled into the hideout. Now they were in their shared room. The citizen was laying on her own bed that was located on the right side of the room, not very far away from Sebastian’s. She was wearing her white undershirt and comfy black pants that she had taken from her suitcase. Her jacket and jeans were folded on a chair that was next to the door. Sebastian was still wearing his armor while sitting on the edge of his bed, and was writing something on his datapad. It was a device that was given for him by the Combine, but now he used it to store his thoughts and plans for the future. The room was dim and the only thing that illuminated it was the screen of the datapad and a small lamp that was next to the citizen’s bed. She was actually observing the unit in secret, measuring his every expression and move as his hands moved swiftly on the keys of the datapad. He was so focused on the thing that it made (Y/N) wonder what he was actually doing. She intended to find out.
"Everything is about control.
I must never slip, nor ever fall.
Anything is possible for me.
I must never doubt, and finally be free."
I'm a simple, 17-year-old science (physics, maths and chemistry) student who often spends their time alone. I'm also a big fan of synthwave music and the cyberpunk culture. Languages: English and German.